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Jan 7, 2016 22:20:19 GMT -6
Post by KILLIAN SLATER on Jan 7, 2016 22:20:19 GMT -6
looking back now, i know it was always you "got something to tell ya, ex hubby..." holly started off with a casual introduction to the conversation, a sucker popped in her mouth as something for her to calm her nerves on. the blonde leaned in the door frame of killian's room, her body nothing but a silhouette contrasting the light in the hallway and the darkness of his room. the lycan sat up in bed, blinking a few times as he tried to make sense of what was going on. when his eyes finally adjusted to the darkness, he cast a quick glance at the clock on the table next to him, groaning. four-forty a.m. "jesus fuck, hollister. do you even realize what time it is?" he was a former rockstar, so staying up until all hours of the night hadn't been unusual for him. shit, he used to go to bed at four in the morning after partying all night. but really, it'd been a great while since that'd happened.
ian had half a mind to tell his ex-wife to simply talk to him in four or five hours but something told him it was important. after all, why would she wake him like this? shouldn't she, out of all lazy people in this world have been sleeping? "i swear to fucking god, hollz, if you're just going to have me see if you have a tumor again..." he joked, though he was cut off by the blinding light as she flipped it only. "gahh, some warning next time!" as he rubbed his eyes, she began in on her conversation, pulling the sucker from her mouth. "you know all those conversations we had about lochlan...about you and your feelings and how you shoulda told him about all that...?" the wiccan didn't allow any time for an answer, instead, she continued on. "well, you can hate me all you want, brosef, but i told him."
for a brief moment, killian merely sat there, at the edge of his bed. it had taken a few minutes for him to process what he had heard. not only had his best fucking friend betrayed his secrets, but she told them directly to the one person they were meant about. "y-you did what?" ian stammered, a mixture of fear and rage filling his tones. holly had this strange hope that killian would thank her or some stupid shit like that but of course, she became a little panicky at his reaction, beginning to talk fast and ramble on as she justified her actions. "again, you can hate me for eternity but i made a judgement call. i was sick and tired of seeing you two fight...of hearing the things you both had to say about one another and not being able to tell the other damn one. both of you need to adult up and be honest with one another and seeing as you couldn't do that, i did it for you. i spilled the beans. i let the cat out of the bag. i did it. i told lochlan you love him. i told him you want to be with him."
a sort of constriction formed in his chest and in that moment, killian was finding it difficult to breathe. he abandoned his anger at holly for the moment and instead, it was replaced with insecurity. he threw the covers away from the bed, standing to pace the floor in only his boxers. awkwardly, holly turned her gaze away, intending to talk with ian if he needed it, though mostly she wanted to go to bed and hoped he wouldn't murder her in her sleep. "what did he say?" it was all ian could manage to ask of his friend, ignoring the fact his worst fears and deepest desires were all coming to life at once. what is lochlan wanted nothing to do with him? what if he thought him a freak forever? oh god, what did holly fucking do?
in these moments, all thoughts of delilah had completely left him. he didn't worry about the succubus who was slowly draining him of life but instead, his mind was completely focused on lochlan for the first time in many weeks. furthermore, all selfish thoughts had left him. he didn't care about his wounded pride or his embarrassment but instead, he thought of how this would effect his twin. if he didn't feel the same, that was fine...he just didn't want it to put strain upon them. oh god, what did she do...
killian ran a hand roughly over his face, trying to rub away his anxiety. shortly thereafter, holly answered his question. "ima let you find that out for yourself." with that, she stepped aside and left their presence all together, leaving lochlan in the doorway behind her. ian's gaze focused upon him fully, forcing a swallow, all he could muster was one word. "hey." thought it was about time for this. template by Margie @ Adoxography v2
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Jan 17, 2016 22:40:40 GMT -6
Post by LOCHLAN SLATER on Jan 17, 2016 22:40:40 GMT -6
I'm covered in gold Lochlan stood there as Holly spoke, arms folded against his chest. He doubted it was going to work, not to mention the fact that his brother hated being awoken lately. Especially if you didn't do it right which only meant that he was going to be a bit cranky. Then again... they had not been doing their daily band practice lately, in which case was more Loch's fault then his brother's due to how stubborn he really was. Plus he hated Delilah with all of his being and refused to show up each time she had made her presence known.
But as Holly continued to speak, he wenched at the reaction that his brother gave her. Feeling partically gulity for having her spill the beans a few months ago during one of his breakdowns before he just stopped contact completely for a while. Hell, he even went so far as to go to that strange hotel everybody had been talking about which only resulted in Lochlan becoming more miserable without his brother. Without his music, in which cause Holly seemed to have noticed more so then anyone the strange behavior Lochlan was undergoing and decided to take matters into her own hands. Thus this predicament.
But before he knew it, he saw her walking past him and his brother speaking to him. Causing him to swallow and scratch the back of his neck. "hey..." He spoke in a quite tone as he slowly made his way into his... well his brother's room now. Wrinkling his nose at the stench of Delilah everywhere before his brown eyes fell upon the mirrored image of them. His brother's.
"Long time." It was a statement, a fact even that it had been a few months since they were alone like this. It was awkward, filled with a tensity that caused him to suck in another breath of air. Was this the end of them or the beginning? He didn't know, but he wasn't going to be the first one to open Pandora's box on that one. He rather wait... he'd wait until his brother started first. After all he was the one that didn't listen to him about Delilah and no matter how hard Lochlan tried to get his brother free... Killian always pushed him away.
Those thoughts pushed back into his mind once more, causing Loch's expression to fall as his eyes downcast to the spreadsheets upon the bed. Bunched up and practically falling to the floor before he sighed. Slipping his gaze to the left to see a few of his enemies belongings. "Made herself at home... didn't she?" His tone was bitter, he hated Delilah. Much more then he hated Killian for choosing her over his own twin. His own brother, the person that he shared a womb with. That held most of the centuries with him... he felt a little betrayed by that but that was not why he was here. He was not here to blame. He was not here to punish. He wanted to know. He wanted to know if what Holly said was true.. if it was real. The only way was to ask the source himself, so here he was.
"Guess you got something to tell me, huh? If it's about Delilah i don't want to hear it unless she is dead. Then if that is the case, please escort me to her grave so i can dance on it, drink a fifth of vodka, and piss on it before i desicrate it by destroying her tombstone. Because look at what she's done to your gorgeous face and figure. I look better then you now... well i always look better then you but even better. " And there it was, sassy Lochlan still around to tease his brother but he was certain that his brother... knew why they both were here. Gods, Holly better be right about this... otherwise he was going to feel like a total boob... and stupid. Again.
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Jan 26, 2016 23:20:58 GMT -6
Post by KILLIAN SLATER on Jan 26, 2016 23:20:58 GMT -6
looking back now, i know it was always you even though the effects of delilah's parasitic relationship with him had left killian weak, his wolf still threatened to break free from him with his recent news. it was like it had woken something up within him, a hidden energy that even his own body was unaware he'd had. the sickness inflicted upon him had taken away his ability to shift for the last moon yet here he was, fighting with the beast inside. relationships had never worked out for killian, not in the way he hoped. he always thought it was own decision to sabotage them or not fall it love but frankly, he didn't have a say in the matter. he was a wolf and while his brother was not, it didn't erase the fact that wolves found a mate for life. his happened to be lochlan and in his inability to be with him, he would never truly accept another. his thinking wasn't primal enough to venture to that realization but it was ultimately true.
killian had never felt so much anxiety where his brother was concerned. even when he was saving lochlan fro his blood thirst, he was just concerned about him...and generally tried to keep his cool. no, this feeling was entirely different and if he never felt it again, it would be all too soon. but that wasn't all he'd felt. despite being near death from the succubus' spell, the connection between he and loch surged stronger than ever. it was as though months apart had made it rage once they were within the same vicinity of one another. frankly, it was overwhelming, causing him to stumble back a few steps, struggle to keep himself upright. he rubbed his throbbing temple as lochlan returned his own greeting, throwing in the casually cliche line. he didn't return the words but simply tried to make sense of what he was feeling. he didn't feel disgust or hatred via their bond...only exactly what he was feeling: the nervousness. but even past that, he struggled to distinguish what was there. love, clearly...that had always been there. but was that...passion too? that was unexpected.
"she's not here." the lycan blurted out, as if making that point was very important. had he not been so ill lately, he probably could have deduced the fact that delilah was already moving on...cheating on him with another. regardless, he wanted lochlan to know in that moment that she was far from on his mind. "uhhh, do i?" it was all he could manage at first, unsure he wanted to venture down this path. what holly had just thrown at him he was completely unprepared for, even though he'd rehearsed it plenty of times in front of the mirror, rolling the words over and over in his head that he could never speak. a part of him hoped his brother would do the talking but why would he? after all, it was his secrets that holly had spilled, not loch's.
killian's eyes fell as loch mentioned his appearance, finding it within him to half-laugh at the comment. but there was too much at stake here...too much on his mind for him to joke around casually right now. "no, its not about her...has nothing to do with her..." his voice trailed off as he stifled a coughing fit, wiping the blood on his boxers as though it wasn't a big deal. "i didn't really...this wasn't supposed to...fuckin' holly." he scowled angrily, taking a deep breath before bringing his eyes up to his brother, fully taking him in. he was still the same handsome and youthful face, though there was a certain sadness there, one that ian himself knew all too well. it was abandonment, the feeling that something important was truly missing. ian knew what - it was him.
"oh what the hell." he threw his hands up, deciding he was gonna spill the beans. "whatever i'm gonna tell you, loch, please just don't let it affect us. i just... i don't want us to fight anymore and i hope you aren't fuckin' weirded out or anything." here went nothing. "i love you lochlan. i always have and always will. as my brother...but as more too. i've never been able to find anyone, be with anyone who makes me feel the way you do. when we're apart, i feel like a part of me is missing. when i see you with other people, i want to be happy for you but i really just wish that was me. and when i think of you being gone from my life...well, i'd rather die than live in that world. it sounds stupid as hell, super cliche but all i want is for you to be happy and i can't help but feel a little selfish in wanting that happiness to be..." he swallowed sharply. "...to be with me." template by Margie @ Adoxography v2 [/quote]
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Mar 12, 2016 4:32:12 GMT -6
Post by LOCHLAN SLATER on Mar 12, 2016 4:32:12 GMT -6
covered in gold Loch listened with an impassive expression, his eyes squinting at his brother as he slowly folded hisarms. "That's a first, what she doing your laundry?" He spoke in a venomous tone before he cast his gaze to the side when he spoke in anger about Holly. His fists balled up but they released when he felt his twin's gaze upon him. Part of him wanted to look back at him with anger to hate him, but he didn't. Not even a little bit, instead he kept his gaze away. Afraid of what Kilian was really thinking, what he was truly going to say due to Holly pushing them in this predicament.
But as he listened to his eldest brother, his eyes slowly fell upon him with a slightly gaped mouth. Was this real? To be sure, the twin slowly pinched his tattooed arm and winced slightly. Definitely real, so... did Killian feel the same? Confusion laid within Loch's eyes as he stared his twin down before slowly folding his arms tightly against his chest. "I'm only with other people to make you jealous, Killian. That's all i do that for... but you didn't seem to be missing anything when Delilah decided to become a part of that life. I told you she wasn't good for you, but you didn't listen. You never do. Then when i tried to get you away from the cunt you pushed me away... you didn't stand by my side. Instead you got other people to agree with you that was being a overly dramatic queen when i knew exactly what was happening. The only person that stood by my side that i actually knew was Holly. There was this model chick but she wasn't really important because i didn't know her. But my own brother chose to side with a cunt that was filling him with lies instead of his own twin. His own flesh and blood. Surely you've been feeling how i been feeling lately? You should know exactly how i feel right now... that i want to hate you but i can't because if i hate you then... i'd lose you forever. I can't lose the only family i have left... we already lost mom... what will i do if i ever lost you? With your stupid boyish charm, hobo good looks, and stupid lame ass jokes. Who'd protect me when i get blood thirsty? Who'd take care of me when i need affection? I've always wanted to be with you, Killian... that's what Holly was trying to say. I don't know when the feelings started but they never stopped and yours has never been one sided." Loch spoke with emotion before raking his fingers through his blonde hair.
He didn't know what to do, nor feel seeing many emotions were running all at once. Clasping his face within the palm of his right hand, he looked through his fingers at his brother before casting his gaze away again. "You're so stupid..." With that he slowly reached out and grabbed his brother by the collar of his shirt; pulling him forward to press his cool lips against the warmth of Killian's. A soft sigh escaped the vampire's throat as he slowly released his brother's collar only to wrap his arms around his neck and tug him forcefully closer. Causing his fangs to unsheathe and accidentally clip Killian's bottom lip. Jolting back, Lochlan clasped his hand over his mouth before drawing his hand away to examine the blood on his lips. On his fingers. His brother's blood, which was sweet as it was addicting to his tongue caused him to pause. Fear and guilt on his face. "I didn't mean to... ack, i'm so so sorry for the late ass response #horribleterbear ♡
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Mar 19, 2016 22:31:49 GMT -6
Post by KILLIAN SLATER on Mar 19, 2016 22:31:49 GMT -6
looking back now, i know it was always you even as lochlan made his snarky comments about delilah, she was far from killian's mind. the last thing he wanted to think about was the woman who'd been slowly sucking him dry over the last few months. he'd been convinced he loved her, only because of the spell shew as under. even when he was a part from her, what few moments he was, he felt a longing for his twin. his connection was weakened but it would never be extinguished. in his heart and his gut, he could feel his brother. loch was just as lonely as ian was, even though the lycan had a woman to curl up next to each and every night. he might as well have been alone, though, considering his relationship was hollow. the one he truly wanted, the one his heart could fully belong to...well, he didn't think that relationship could or would ever be a reality.
after his admission, ian searched for something in lochlan's eyes. first he looked for the disgust or fear but he couldn't find it. could it be? could it be that his brother was accepting of the things he had to say? even as he turned his gaze away, he could feel nothing negative from his twin. his stomach turned over in knots a few times, to the point he nearly felt sick. but through his own overwhelming emotions, he couldn't decipher it they were his own feelings or lochlan's. at first he had felt the venom and animosity but slowly, it was fading. still, it was a hard read altogether.
disappointment read over his features as lochlan started to scold him. this wasn't what he was looking for. his gaze rolled in agitation, trying to tune out the words he knew he couldn't. "my entire life all i've done is look after you." he said quietly. it wasn't a complaint, just the truth. he'd saved lochlan all those years ago from the lycan attack and build ravenous simply to keep him happily fed so as not to have the council after them. "i didn't have a choice when it came to delilah." again, also true. "a demon doesn't match well against a lycan." admitting he was weak was no easy task for him, but he laid it all out for his brother. "if i could have pushed her away, i would have. if i could have left with you, i would have. do you think this is what i wanted?" he spat back angrily, standing for a moment only to pace the room. "do you think i wanted her to drain me? to be sucked all everything so i'm nearly devoid of all emotion? fuck, lochlan! i haven't even fed in...months." that much was clear by the skin that clung to him like a skeleton, accompanied by the heavy bags under his eyes. "but you were right. that what you want to hear?" he finally muttered with agitation.
it was't until his very last words that killian began to let go of his anger, stopping his movement and letting his eyes wander to lochlan again. "i would never leave you. maybe that's why i've broken free, finally." how could he ever leave his brother? guilt flooded over him for his actions over the last few months, letting it consume him in the moment. it was crippling, nearly sending him to the floor as he tried to deal with the swarm of emotions.
"and you're a fuckin' brat." he muttered in response, a little laugh finding its way out to punctuate the sentence. the sudden actions of lochlan should have been entirely a shock to him but killian faded into them as if he'd been used to it his entire life. he became greedy, meeting loch's kiss with a force of his own as his hands cradle the sides of his face. it was new territory and yet, it felt more right than any other thing he'd done in his life. this was where he was meant to be.
a growl, or perhaps even more of a pur, escaped him as lochlan bit into his lip. he didn't mind it in the least, simply hungry for his twin's touch. but as soon as it was his, it was gone, watching as he shot backward. "if you've grown tired of ravenous..." he moved to loch, holding his wrist up to his brother's mouth. "...then i have another solution." it may not have been as intimate for him as it would be if he himself were a vampire but he wanted to share himself with his brother...in every way. template by Margie @ Adoxography v2
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Apr 4, 2016 1:26:44 GMT -6
Post by LOCHLAN SLATER on Apr 4, 2016 1:26:44 GMT -6
covered in gold Loch remained silent, letting his brother's words run through his head. Of course Killian had been watching over him his whole life, making sure that he didn't get in trouble or... worse. But Loch couldn't help the fact that he was feeling replaced when Delilah had came into the picture. He was relieved to know that she was gone... no longer interfering within their lives. He slowly lifted his fingers to his blood stained lips, before drawing them away to look at his now bloodied fingers caused him to sigh out shakily. Before his eyes shot up quickly to his brother as the scent of blood filled the air once more. "i'm not tired of... Ravenous..." He murmured staring at the blood dripping from his brother's wrist. Only to swallow hard when Killian drew it closer to his mouth, feeling his fangs ache for the blood that was so close to taste. That was being offered. He was so sure that if he had a heartbeat it would be racing out of his chest.
"you're making this difficult for me to say no... Ian..., you know i'm not so... good on my..." He paused as his tattooed hand slowly took his offered wrist, feeling his brother's pulse beneath his thumb he felt his fangs slowly unsheath unable to keep hidden within their pallets before his eyes slowly met his brother's. Trying to find some type of uncertainty or hesitation within Killian eyes to will himself away, but there was none. Only the frail worn face looking back at him with intimacy and determination. Without anymore hesitation, the younger twin bit into the bleeding wound of his brother's. The taste of Killian's blood filling his mouth caused him to groan in satisfaction as he tasted Killian. Every emotion that his brother had bottled up, every fear....every thought... bled into Lochlan's mind causing him to screw his eyes shut tightly before he pulled away from Killian after a while. Breathing ragidly as he collasped upon his knees, trying to recollect himself as he deciphered what went on a few moments ago.
Due to their connection being so faint when Delilah was in the picture, Lochlan became depressed that the connection had been severed when it was very faint. But with everything that had been repressed everything was lashing onto the younger twin in waves, causing him to tear up from being so overwhelmed. "You.... you've loved me all this time and didn't know i felt the same...." He laughed then at that, a gentle genuine laugh. Trying to control not only his emotions but the fact that he too was feeling his brother's. Blood letting was personal to vampires simply you could get inside the head of the person you were drinking from freely. It was a form of intimacy with intercourse that often many vampires shared with loved ones. How lycans showed this specific trait to one another, Loch didn't know. All that mattered was the fact that Killian loved him. LOVED him as he loved Killian.
"How stupid are we?" He teased before looking up at Killian, lovingly before slowly pushing himself to his feet. Raking his hand covered in his twin's blood through his hair. Before he shifted forward, gently pinning Killian to the wall behind him. Having knocked down the lamp that had resided on the endtable before meeting his lips with his own again. "How stupid are you?" his voice was hushed, almost husky and whispered as he kept his brother trapped in his vice. Smirking at the fact that he was the stronger twin at this point in time, before he pulled away from kissing Killian to snuggling into his chest. Cheek resting against his sternum as he listened to his brother's heartbeat race, breathing out shakily as he rested there.
He knew that Killian was in no shape to do any time of over extersion, no matter how much they wanted to or how long they had waited. Lochlan would never take advantage of his brother, that was something that went against who Lochlan was. Pierced lips pressed against the nape of Killian's neck before they parted to speak but no words came out, instead he just stared up at Killian. Knowing for a fact that Killian would understand. here have some feels ♡
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