▲ let it go, just let it be
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May 22, 2016 15:27:35 GMT -6
Post by MAYA CLARKE on May 22, 2016 15:27:35 GMT -6
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -THERE COMES A TIME IN EVERYONE'S LIFE,WHERE NOTHING SEEMS TO GO YOUR WAY;- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -Maya felt her heart race as she heard what Caleb was telling her. They were lycans, monsters. Maya didn’t know what to do, she was furious that Caleb didn’t tell her, furious that he turned her twin brother into a lycan. Pissed off that this was what he wanted to tell her. No exchange of the words “I love you”, not him telling her he never wanted to be without her. No, that he was a god damn fucking werewolf. Not to mention that Maya had her own news to tell him, but now she couldn’t. God, she couldn’t fucking breathe and in a blind rage, she broke up with him. “I can’t do this. I can’t be with someone who would keep something like that from me.” The words rang in her head over and over again. In tears, Maya found herself running to her car. Her hands shaking as she fought to open the door. She was so angry, so full of hatred.
It felt like someone had punched a hole into her chest. She was sobbing as she drove, finally pulling over on the side of the road and broke down. She hated all of this, she just wanted a normal life. A normal life where she wasn’t pregnant with her now lycan ex’s baby. Oh god, that meant that she was carrying a hybrid. Maya felt herself panic as she shook and the next thing she knew, she was throwing open the car door to vomit. She had begun to get used to the sickness and she hated it. She just wanted it all to be over. As she wiped her mouth and then dried her tears, she took in a deep breath and got back into the car. She knew where she would go.
As she drove, Maya started to feel anxious again. God, what would Kenzie say? Maya was there all through of her and Cedric’s issues, between their marriage and the birth of Bryce to staying with Cedric while they both waited for Kenzie to open her eyes, she was practically family. Cedric was pretty much her older brother and she considered Kenzie her sister. Sure, she may have been a couple years older than Maya, but the bond they shared was unbreakable. Maya bit down on her lip and wiped at her eyes again, trying to calm herself down before she went into the house. Locking her car after she got out of it, she gave a brief knock on the door before she went inside. Cedric noticed something was wrong, but Maya brushed him off. He told her that Kenzie was still in bed resting and Maya nodded.
She couldn’t have imagined what it would be like to go through losing a baby, but Maya needed her best friend. She couldn’t exactly go to her mother with this. She would just get some bullshit response about how she was crazy and that the supernatural world didn’t exist. Or how she knew Caleb was never the one for Maya.
Not even hesitating, she made her way up to their bedroom. Briefly stopping in to say hello to little Rayna, who was still sound asleep and Bryce was already gone for school. She quietly opened the bedroom door and took off her shoes before she pulled the covers back on Cedric’s side and climbed into bed with Kenzie. Surprisingly, this was a regular thing between the two of them. Maya had many nights when she would be in bed with Kenzie and vice versa. It was a safe place to vent and talk. It was a place that they could just be sad with pillows beyond pillows to cry in and hide in the soft duvet.
Maya bit her lip. Taking in a small breath, she pushed her hair back. “Caleb’s a lycan and he bit Bennett. Weeks ago as it would seems. Caleb told me today.” She bit down on her lip hard, “That was what he wanted to tell me this morning, not that he loved me or wanted to be with me for the rest of his life. That he was a god damn lycan.” She rubbed her face as she looked at her friend, “I ran out… I broke up with him… I didn’t know what to do,” she could feel tears well up in her eyes.
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tags; KENZIE MONTGOMERY lyrics; ray lamontagne words; 728 notes; hope this is okay
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▲ love, i have wounds only you can mend
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Jul 4, 2016 11:22:25 GMT -6
Post by KENZIE MONTGOMERY on Jul 4, 2016 11:22:25 GMT -6
prettyprettyplease* if you ever ever feel like you're nothin, you are perfect to me,, Kenzie still wasn't entirely mobile, and though spending so much time in bed made the young woman restless, she had the company of her little family to make it more bearable. Bedtime routines had been moved to her and Cedric's room, the kids snuggled between them as they read their bedtime story, Rayna usually asleep by the time the story was over and Bryce usually begging for one more before bed. The doctors warned her that the first couple of days since coming home would be accompanied with this sort of fatigue, but that fatigue came with a lack of desire to do anything. She did her best, she picked herself up for the sake of her children, for the sake of her husband, but she did it all with a constant ache in her chest, a constant reminder in the back of her mind. And even in the moments spent with the three most important people in the world to her, all curled up together contently, she couldn't help but think that one more person was supposed to be there with them.Kenzie blamed herself wholeheartedly for the loss of her and Cedric's baby. Even though everyone told her not to, that there was nothing she could have done, she couldn't help it. She was the baby's mother, her job was to protect it, to keep it safe until it made its appearance into the world and through any and everything after that. And she didn't do that. It devastated her, and she still spent many nights crying herself to sleep after Bryce and Rayna were asleep, while Cedric was at the station late. But around her family she kept it together; she had to. She couldn't just curl up forever when she still had two children who depended on her, and a husband who was hurting just as much as she was, who felt the same loss. The only way to go was forward, and she was doing that. Sometimes, though, she just needed to lay down. Kenzie sighed softly, rolling over so she was laying on her back and staring up at the ceiling, listening closely for Rayna waking up from her nap. She still had a couple of hours before they'd need to pick up Bryce from school for the day.She blinked when she heard a knock downstairs, sitting up a little bit in bed and listening for Cedric's voice, not hearing anything other than footsteps approaching their room. Kenzie's long red hair spilled over her shoulders as she tilted her head to the side before she curled back up under the covers, figuring she was hearing things. The next thing she knew the bedroom door quietly opened, the covers pulled back before Maya laid down beside her. Kenz smiled faintly over at her best friend, a sense of deja vu coming over her as she looked at her. How many times had they ended up here in the past? Through everything Maya had been there - the two had been friends for so long that Kenzie couldn't remember a time she wasn't in her life. She didn't really want to remember a time like that. The two were sisters, even if it wasn't by blood, and Kenzie relied on Maya's friendship more than she'd ever realize. She could see on her friend's face that something was wrong, and it only took a moment before Maya finally said what was on her mind, Kenzie's expression falling at her words."Jesus Christ, a lycan?" she said quietly, shaking her head as she sat up a little to look at Maya. She felt a pang in her chest at the sight of the tears forming in Maya's eyes, gently tucking her friend's hair back. "Hey," she said softly. "Maya, you did the right thing, okay? That was ... massive to drop on you, it's okay ..." She bit down on her lip, knowing how much this must have hurt Maya. It was pretty clear looking at her and Caleb that there was a bond there, a love that hadn't yet been spoken out loud, but it was there. Kenzie could see it in both of them. She wasn't going to lie and say it wasn't. But what was happening to Caleb now would be scary for both of them, and what mattered to Kenzie above all else was that Maya felt safe. And if she didn't feel safe around him, or didn't feel like now was the time for her and Caleb anymore, she could understand that and support it wholeheartedly. It was what they did after all - they had each other's backs, regardless of the situation, though this definitely topped the list as one of the craziest."You did what was best for you in this situation," she said, propping herself up on her arm and looking down at Maya. "If you need time, you need space, you need to take that for you." She chewed her lip, her eyes gentle. She hesitated before her next question, never one to tread lightly when it came to Maya. They were close enough that they could each be honest with each other and say what was on their minds. "Do you still love him?" she asked softly. "Even after all of this, even if that's not what he said to you?" She'd let Maya answer how she wanted, vent however she needed to. Kenzie was there to listen, threaten Caleb if she needed to, but mostly just to listen and offer comfort where she could. tagged: MAYA CLARKE // lyrics: p!nk // notes: brotp<3 TEMPLATE BY ELIZA @ SP & ADOXOGRAPHY
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Jul 19, 2016 8:57:47 GMT -6
Post by MAYA CLARKE on Jul 19, 2016 8:57:47 GMT -6
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -THERE COMES A TIME IN EVERYONE'S LIFE,WHERE NOTHING SEEMS TO GO YOUR WAY;- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -Nothing hurt more for her right now and it sucked, it hurt and it hurt to breathe. Maya hadn’t really known heartbreak in her life, but damn was she close to it when she thought that Kenzie wasn’t going to make it, when she thought little Rayna wasn’t going to make it. That would have hurt like hell, honestly she wouldn’t have known what to do. More often than not, when Kenzie was in the hospital she was at the house with Bryce, looking after him while Cedric tried to take care of his girls. Maya may not have had a lot of family, but what she lacked in family she made up for in friends. She had dried Kenzie’s tears many times, just as Kenzie had done the same for her. Many times they wound up exactly like they were now, lying in one of their beds, needing the other.
Knowing her problems weren’t anything as bad as Kenzie’s, she almost didn’t come to her friend. She didn’t want to have to be a blubbering mess when the family was going through and suffering the loss of a child. Maya felt so small, which was maybe why she found herself at her friend’s place. A part of her didn’t want Cedric to know, mostly out of fear that he would punch Caleb in the face or something like that. There was so much uncertainty in her life at the moment. What was she going to do? Her entire life was Caleb, everything she had ever known was him, her was her entire world. Now, well, now she was alone. She was truly and utterly alone, at least that was how she felt. She didn’t want to be in her apartment, mostly because she didn’t want to have to see or deal with Caleb, it just didn’t seem like something that she really wanted to do.
Taking in a deep breath, Maya let it out. She was trying to calm herself down, to not have another break down. No boy was worth her tears, that was what her mother used to tell her. Of course, to Maya, Caleb was worth all of this. To her, he was worth every miserable tear that fell from her eye. She didn’t know what true love was, but she felt like she loved him more than she knew. The love between them was something that they didn’t have to speak about, they just knew. While no one had said it to the other, they knew. Of course, this didn’t stop the very small sob that escaped her lips as tears freely flowed down her face.
“I didn’t know what else I could do…” she admitted in a small voice after a few moments of trying to get her emotions in check. There was so many things swirling in her mind, was this the right thing to do? Was this really the best thing to do in this situation? She wasn’t sure, she truly wasn’t sure. She wanted to curl up and just hope this was all a horrible dream, “I don’t know what to do, I don’t know if it was the right thing to do.” She let out a shaky breath as she looked at her friend with tearful eyes.
“I do, I really do.” She chewed on her lip, “but I just… I don’t know if I can be with him right now.” Maya said after a few moments of silence. She felt betrayed, especially by her brother for not telling her. Maybe that was why she didn’t go to Bennett. Maya bit down on her lip, not wanting to tell Kenzie the next bit, especially with recent events, “Kenz… I know this is shit timing, I really do.” She looked at her friend.
“I found out yesterday I’m pregnant, and I.. I’m really scared.” She admitted in a small voice, angry that she wanted to cry again. There was so much going through her head and she just wanted someone to tell her what to do, to tell her that it would all be okay.
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tags; KENZIE MONTGOMERY lyrics; ray lamontagne words; 684 notes; ugh. i feel like this sucks balls.
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